i watch as the planets turn and the old stars die and the young stars burn

8 01 2014

Last week I sat down and thought about the things I’d like to accomplish this year. Not so much in a resolutions sort of way, but in a what would I like to work on this year as an individual, goals, and prayers for the new year. So, resolutions, but more in theory, not name.

Eh, oh well, I guess they were resolutions.

A few years ago I had been reading a blog by Jason Good, (he’s got some hilarious takes on parenthood and life, you should check him out) and his last post of 2011 was interesting in how it talked about the original thought behind his blog. I copied one of my favorite points below.

I thought of it like this: The differences between dieting and getting sober are vast. Dieting means eating less, and you’re constantly tempted with morsels of your addiction. Being sober – though difficult in practice – is an easier concept:  never drink again.

I like the difference between the diet and being sober. While I’m not planning on cutting anything out of my life, it was a good wake-up call to what a resolution should be about. It’s not the temporary change, the 10 pounds the collective “we” have all committed to lose, but a life change. It’s a commitment to live a healthier, sustainable life. To consistently choose the salad over the fries, or to smile more, not just until we get tired of it, but until that change becomes who we are and starts to shape our character.

Don’t get me wrong. I know choosing a salad over fries (or insert your own similar example here) will not really shape my character, but the consistent denying of instant gratification, the consistent choice to remain positive in all facets of life, the decision to reach out to those around you in a more personal way, will.

2013 was a year of commitments. I made it a point to follow through on things I’d said, the choices and decisions I’d  made, regardless of how I felt about them after the fact. It meant saying no to some more exciting options in order to honor decisions I’d made earlier, but overall it was such a good lesson on letting your yes be yes and your no be no. This year, I am expanding my 2013 word by adding Engage. I want to extend myself beyond what is comfortable in my relationships with those around me. Saying yes to more things instead of opting to stay home. Whether this is drawing new people into my life or just going out with my roommates when I’d rather go to bed, I’m not sure. We’ll see how it plays out in real life, but it is what I will be praying this year for myself and those around me.

And, because no post is complete without music, here is a song that has been following me this past month or so. Enjoy!



when i ain’t drinkin’ baby, you are on my mind

26 01 2013

I’m sitting at St John’s with the roommates and we’re all working on our goals for the next year. Of course, this means I’m mostly listening to music and sometimes writing, sometimes distracting, but mostly staring at a page and drinking water.

My word for 2013 is commit. I want to commit to the things I’ve resolved to do, and to the life I am living here and to the relationships I have been given. This song doesn’t really apply to any of that, but it is the song of the moment, so I’ll share it as well.



own your responsibility

19 04 2012


Little by little the look of the country changes because of the men we admire. You’re just going to have to make up your own mind one day about what’s right and wrong.

Homer Bannon “Hud”

strings, the study of

5 02 2012

The irony of the tag on my blog is that we are anything but stringless: a myriad of strings are attached to us. They don’t direct our movements or actions, but they are good baselines, tugging on us, reminding us of life and the hope of what we have to attain.

So, loosen the ties to people holding you back, tighten the knots to those who love you enough to give a snap of correction, and remember your life is yours to live how you will, but hanging on to the right strands can only improve it.

There is only one way I care for. Do better, and grow better, and be better.

– The Princess and the Goblin, George MacDonald

the bucket is broken, but the water is pure

31 12 2010

After more than a few years of loving Josh Ritter, I heard this song for the first time yesterday.  It’s funny how easy it is to lose music on an iPod, especially a song from an artist who gets a fair share of my auditory attention.  Maybe I’d heard it before, but yesterday I really heard it.

I love how music (or books, places, people) can simmer in the back of our lives until we suddenly open our eyes to see what has been waiting for us all along.  I know this sounds like the typical ending to a rotten tomato of a romance movie, but really, why not?

This song couldn’t have come at a better time.  I’m ready to make a mark on this world in any small way I can and it’s been hard trusting that where I am is where I should be… that I am here at the right time, and not thinking I may be missing something better down a different road.  Call it the fear of a childhood reader – I managed to miss many fun times because I stayed home, by choice, yes, but the damage was done and an illogical fear was created.  🙂

My peace now is in following Christ.  I will be weary in this world, but faithfulness will bring me to where my right times will be.  Mr. Ritter’s lyrics once again hit home.  I can know, with “no second guesses or secret signs” that I am here at the right time.

this book is due back 9/10/2010

21 08 2010

I like checking books out from the library, holding them for the max amount of time, and then only reading the first few chapters.

Occasionally this pattern is broken by me reading all but the last two, or none at all and just having good intentions.