i watch as the planets turn and the old stars die and the young stars burn

8 01 2014

Last week I sat down and thought about the things I’d like to accomplish this year. Not so much in a resolutions sort of way, but in a what would I like to work on this year as an individual, goals, and prayers for the new year. So, resolutions, but more in theory, not name.

Eh, oh well, I guess they were resolutions.

A few years ago I had been reading a blog by Jason Good, (he’s got some hilarious takes on parenthood and life, you should check him out) and his last post of 2011 was interesting in how it talked about the original thought behind his blog. I copied one of my favorite points below.

I thought of it like this: The differences between dieting and getting sober are vast. Dieting means eating less, and you’re constantly tempted with morsels of your addiction. Being sober – though difficult in practice – is an easier concept:  never drink again.

I like the difference between the diet and being sober. While I’m not planning on cutting anything out of my life, it was a good wake-up call to what a resolution should be about. It’s not the temporary change, the 10 pounds the collective “we” have all committed to lose, but a life change. It’s a commitment to live a healthier, sustainable life. To consistently choose the salad over the fries, or to smile more, not just until we get tired of it, but until that change becomes who we are and starts to shape our character.

Don’t get me wrong. I know choosing a salad over fries (or insert your own similar example here) will not really shape my character, but the consistent denying of instant gratification, the consistent choice to remain positive in all facets of life, the decision to reach out to those around you in a more personal way, will.

2013 was a year of commitments. I made it a point to follow through on things I’d said, the choices and decisions I’d  made, regardless of how I felt about them after the fact. It meant saying no to some more exciting options in order to honor decisions I’d made earlier, but overall it was such a good lesson on letting your yes be yes and your no be no. This year, I am expanding my 2013 word by adding Engage. I want to extend myself beyond what is comfortable in my relationships with those around me. Saying yes to more things instead of opting to stay home. Whether this is drawing new people into my life or just going out with my roommates when I’d rather go to bed, I’m not sure. We’ll see how it plays out in real life, but it is what I will be praying this year for myself and those around me.

And, because no post is complete without music, here is a song that has been following me this past month or so. Enjoy!



when i ain’t drinkin’ baby, you are on my mind

26 01 2013

I’m sitting at St John’s with the roommates and we’re all working on our goals for the next year. Of course, this means I’m mostly listening to music and sometimes writing, sometimes distracting, but mostly staring at a page and drinking water.

My word for 2013 is commit. I want to commit to the things I’ve resolved to do, and to the life I am living here and to the relationships I have been given. This song doesn’t really apply to any of that, but it is the song of the moment, so I’ll share it as well.